Things i still want to do in my lifetime

1. travel travel travel
2. watch the stars in the night sky(got to get a telescope first, for stargazing)
3. write
4. go for long drives to far off places, either alone or with someone special.
5. learn to cook (i do want to... though i like to eat better)
6. to get back the innocence of being a child - the child in me
7. to have faith in something bigger in me and in the world around us
8. to try more things (food, etc -> new experiences)
9. to own my own place somewhere remote
10. to laugh some more
11. to make more people laugh and feel good
12. take good pictures
13. be with nature... the sea, the sun, the forest, the falls, the rivers....
14. ah, own my car
15. have my own library
16. have a book i have written published in my lifetime(!?!)
17. be more open, meet new people
18. have fun
19. smile
20. enjoy being me - no more hiding
21. have my own movie theater
22. save a life or two - or the world if i can (there's nothing wrong about dreaming.)
23. my poems into music lyrics (yes, let's dream.)
24. to feel at peace with myself - my decisions, my feelings
25. ...

i'm pretty sure there are something else that i just can't think of right now. :)

yup, just a change in the template. nothing quite radical, of course, something i wish i could just do in my life. but yeah, rushing into things was never really my thing, unless i really wanted it.

write write write.... should i continue writing? i know i should. yet i guess i always stopped myself from writing whatever is in my mind, since i always think of my audience. will it click? etc etc etc... i mean, i know that writing should express who i am, but i guess, i just always wondered if people will even want to read it. or is it because i am just not "putting it out there", that's why nobody is reading? well, i guess i'll never know unless i try it out. actually, just a while ago, and whiles ago, i would have an idea to write about, but then i would always put it off until i finally end up not really wanting to write about it or do it at all anymore. i guess it goes with other stuff that i actually want to do but end up putting off because i think too much about it. there, i've said it as well.... thinking... makes me put off what i want to do.

like at this very moment, i am having a drink. yes, a drink. if it were and is another time, i guess i would have put it off. i want to drink, nothing wrong with that. and am home. nobody to hurt. just me relaxing, watching, blogging... right? right. and here i am, right in front of the computer, typing away, trying to finish this awful tasting 2005 Shiraz Cabernet that was brought home. well, actually, i guess i am trying to make it not sound that bad, but well, it's not really that bad, it just tastes bland, as i commented the first time i tasted it. although drinking it now, well, i just wanted to drink it because i want to drink something. i just felt like drinking something. good or bad, guess i can't really choose right now, can i? of course, it also means that i'll try finishing this glass that i poured for myself. i wonder why i decided to still pour myself one even if i knew how it tasted... ahh... i was thinking of adding something special, to spike it up... but sadly, i can't really get to that special stuff right now.... so, next time, i guess.

hmmm... typing about this now... i think i am trying to be "out".... being bold. probably i can do so as well because i know that only a selected few will be taking the time reading is. and i guess some occasional "visitors" who would happen to chance upon my blog. but other than that, my blog is almost virtually non-existent to the world at large.

anyway.... drink i shall... and then watch something like Miami Ink, as i wait to get my room back by midnight.